Stuck With Each Other - Akon

you can - think you can get free, you think you won't need me
that you're gonna get you somethin better,
but you know that we're in this forever,
and you can - think you can walk out, even with your doubts,
but you know that we're in this together,
you can try to push me from you, nothing you do will keep us a part.

cause it's too late, there's no escape, might as well face it,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other) - ain't nothin you can do about it,
it's been too long, it's been too strong - cause we belong here,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
- stuck in love with each other (stuck in love with each other)
now i can say that i would not care, if you were not there,
tell myself that i'll be fine without ya, but i would die if i was not around ya,
and i can try to convince you i don't need to be with you,
but my only thoughts are thoughts about ya,
what can i do, love is like glue. there's no way to .. tear us a part.

cause it's too late, there's no escape, might as well face it,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other) - ain't nothin i can do about it,
it's been too long, it's been too strong - yes, we belong here,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
- stuck in love with each other (stuck in love with each other)
there's nothing i'd rather do, than to sit with you forever -
can't think of nothin better than to be stuck with you.

cause it's too late, there's no escape, might as well face it,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other) - ain't nothin we can do about it
cause it's too late, there's no escape, might as well face it,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other) - ain't nothin i can do about it
it's been too long, it's been too strong - yes, we belong here,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
- stuck in love with each other (stuck in love with each other)
cause it's too late, there's no escape, might as well face it,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other) - ain't nothin we can do about it
it's been too long, it's been too strong - yes, we belong here,
baby, we're stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
- stuck in love with each other (stuck in love with each other)
ain't nothin gonna stop me and you (eh)
cause you know we just stuck like glue (eh)
ain't nothin we can do, we stuck in love with each other.

I Can't Wait - Akon

I can't wait
I can't wait

[Verse 1]
I think of you
When the morning comes and the nighttime goes away (all day)
Don't you ever think that we won't be okay (no way)
There is nothing stopping me from loving you
Touching and rubbing and kissing and hugging you
What's this feeling taking over me
Baby that's love and it ain't no stopping it
I don't know as far as the eyes can see
Pick up the pace and it aint no dropping it
Always forever I'll be by your side
You're my Bonnie I'm your Clyde
That's the way that its gonna be
I'm in love with you and you in love with me

[Chorus]
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me

[Verse 2]
(I can't wait)
I can't believe
That someone like you will love me endlessly (forever)
If this goes our way my love will always be (eternally)
You have set my mind my love my heart so free
Together forever however just you and me
What's this feeling taking over me
Baby that's love and it aint no stopping it
I don't know as far as the eyes can see
Pick up the pace and it aint no dropping it
Always forever I'll be by your side
You're my Bonnie I'm your Clyde
Cause that's the way that it's gonna be
I'm in love with you and you're in love with me

[Chorus]
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me

[Bridge]
(I can't wait)
To have you right next to me
Here by my side
(I can't wait)
To kiss and caress you girl
While holding you tight
(I can't wait)
Can't imagine life without you
It just ain't right
(I can't wait)
I got a whole lot of loving
And you gonna get it tonight

[Chorus]
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me
(I can't wait)
Sit down and talk for a minute
Go outside and take a walk for a minute
It's you and me
I can't wait
I can't wait
I can't wait

10/11/09

What I regret the most,
Is that I broke your heart,
When you told me the other day,
I ask myself what have I became.

What's worse is that I didn't even realise,
What can be done?
Let me mend your broken heart,
Let me into your life once more.

I understand if you hate me,
If you wanna stab my heart a million times,
I guess I deserve it,
For breaking my baby's fragile heart.

Can we put everything that's happened behind us?
I know it's not easy but I'll help you,
Forget the painful things, keep the beautiful memories,
I just want you back into my lonely and empty life.

I'm not Shakespeare, not Elliot either,
But I hope that all the poems I wrote manage to touch you,
You said that you'll wait for 5 years and that's all,
If you keep your promise then I'll take it.

By that time, I hope that you'll still love me,
Hopefully more than 110%,
Am I being too wishful?
I hope not cause you're my life.

I know that deep down in your heart right now you still love me,
My fear is that I don't know how long it will stay like that,
Long distance is hard especially when we can't even call or see each other,
Please hang in there baby, I will come and get you when the time is right.

Tuesday, 20-10-09

It's gonna be 3 weeks since I've heard from him. He was back last Friday. But no messages, no shout-outs, no nothing. I guess it's really true that he's giving up huh? There is a few things I'm very sure. First, I'm on my own. I have to stand on my own. I have to endure everything alone. Second, I lost my life. I can't even concentrate in my exam. Halfway through and I'm crying in the examination hall. I don't feel like doing anything anymore, let alone study. I would say that it's the PERFECT time to die. Third, I still love him and he will be the first and last person I will ever love. I will wait for him. If I don't end up with him, then I'm staying single my whole life. Fourth, I'm angry. With him. Is he that weak? I he such a coward? What happened to the promise? 'I will wait for you' and such? I'm still waiting for him. Lastly, I'm on my way towards self-destruction. Twice I felt like vomiting today but I held it back in. All the time I feel so sad and hopeless. I just wish that he can hurry up and tell me that he has moved on so that I can kill myself. It's just so hard to take all this hell. Even if I'm in Australia, I won't be any better. I will do everything I've promised him. I won't drink alcohol when he's not around. I won't like any guys. I won't let any guys touch me. All those little bits that I've promised him. I just hope that he will wait for me. I also hope that I won't cry for all my other papers. I hope he comes to my HSC alumni night. I always wonder. Is he using my shawl? My perfume? Or even looking at the bottle I've given him? Or the lava lamp perhaps? I hope he didn't throw all that away. I hope he keeps and treasures them. I longed to be in his arms. To hug him, smell him and kiss him. Everywhere I go, there's always something or someone that reminds me of him. From my room window, I always look it the direction of Kedah. At least I think it's Kedah. The land's somewhere there, so far. I can't see him but I can feel him. When I can feel him, tears will start. I'll start asking myself. Why are you so weak? Don't you love me anymore? I'm still here right? I still love you, so stay with me. We can be together if we just believe and ahve faith. Be strong. Believe in us. I will wait for you. I've said so many sentences but can you hear them? I'm crying so much but can you see them? My love for you, can't you feel them? I'm angry and disappointed in him. Why must he give up? Why must he move on? Why? Is it because my parents said so? Or his parents perhaps? Or maybe people around us? I thought you want to stand on your feet. I thought you want to be strong, be firm. What the hell happened to you? Suddenly you're listening to those around you? Those who wants us apart and not those who wants us together? Well, there's one thing I'm very sure that you're totally not clear about, it's the fact that we're born for each other. We're meant to be together. Have you forgotten the song you've dedicated to me and ask me to listen to it everytime I'm sad or miss you? The first line itself says that "It's undeniable that we should be together". I'm so tired. I'm just afraid that I can't stand for 4 years, alone. Come back to me, won't you? I love you, forever and ever.

Poem II

Just a blink of an eye,
It has been two months,
Without you in my life,
I can't even laugh at puns.

Together we stand so tall,
But people around us hope we will fall,
From you I just need a call,
It heals my heart faster than shopping in a mall.

Hold me in your arms and never let me go,
Pull me in and give me your sweetest kiss,
Make me tingle from top to toe,
Only having you in my life, can give my bliss.

I will be far away next year,
But please don't shed a tear,
You need have no fear,
I am yours, your one and only dear.

When can I see you again, I really don't know,
But baby, let's just go with the flow,
The love we have is not for show,
We can have more fun by laying low.

xoxo,
otakubassist

Thursday, 15-10-09

it's just a day since I knew that he wants to give up on us. He wants to move on. 'It's time', it seems to him. It's jumt a day and I feel so terrible. I can no longer stop my tears, my emotions and my feelings. What happened to the promise he made me? I'm not angry that he decided to break his promise. I'm angry at my parents. People said that mom and dad 'saved' me from hell but I think they sent me there and now, I'm suffering. It wouldn't hurt so terribly bad if he and I just broke up naturally, like get angry or mutual decision. But they just had to separate us by force, blackmailing and threats. They said they are older, more experienced but I think they are just bloody stupid. That is one of the many things I hate about them. Them always care about their 'face', ego and dignity. Now, I can't help it. The blame's on them. If they didn't break us up, he wouldn't be giving up on us now. Call me young or stupid or foolish or inexperienced, but even a baby would know if the love we had as true or not. I don't bloody care about anything else anymore, not my education, not my health, not my family and not even my future. A lawyer? Screw it! I don't want to be a lawyer if I'm not with him. If I'm with him, by all means, I can be chemical engineer! Everytime I cry, I don't feel like crying. I feel like wailing and screaming and just killing someone. Committing suicide? Thought of it a million times but decided not to do it after I met him. He literally saved my life. After I lost him, committing suicide is not a bad idea at all. But I wouldn't do it. Cause if I do it, my mom will put the blame on him and will definitely send people to do something to him. I don't know what. Maybe break his leg? Dig and eyeball out? Maybe chopping off his hands. I'm not surprised if she did it. I mean that was what made me decided that I had absolutely no choice but to break up with him. To save him. I had to do it. Even if it means we're not together anymore. In the future, I'm definitely going back to him, into his arms. But now, I can't. i bloody can't. Because he decided to give up. Now, I've literally lost everything. I can't study. I hate my family and I've lost him. I guess it's a very appropriate time to commit suicide huh? Yes, I would say but I'm not doing it just yet. Funny it is, he is still the one keeping me alive. I just saw that he wrote on Facebook that he want to move on and give up and he doesn't care anymore. How far it's true? I don't know and3I'm living on that. I still have hope and faith in us. I prayed to God everyday. Sure, he comforts me but it only last half an hour, max. Then I would start crying again. Today was a bit different. Not any better though. Now, I have a nauseating feeling. I wanted so badly, to put my finger into my mouth and just provoke my throat so that I can vomit. I didn't do it though. It was unhealthy, almost like I was suffering from anorexia. I can't wait til I graduate from uni. The moment I graduate, I'm definitely staying in Australia or somewhere else. Somewhere that's far, far away from Ipoh. Screw my family. I'd rather live without them. My first brother? Maybe I'll still keep in touch but there's still this anger and betrayal feeling in me. I know it's not his fault but I just can't help it. I'm sorry. My dad. I don't know. If I go back, he'll be angry but if I don't, he'll be sad. I'll think about it later. The other two? Fuck them. I hope they die suffering through hell twice first. They're bloody fucking bitches. Dumbass mother fuckers. Jackasses. Whores. I just feel so bad for Jac and Ken. They don't know the real truth. They thought I've moved on, but that is clearly impossible. I'll tell them, maybe. But it'll definitely be after our finals and prolly alumni night too. Come to think of it, this year's birthday is going to be the saddest one for me. I just want to run away, stay somewhere to calm myself. But I can't do it. Again, that bitch would call up the police and have him behind bars. What should I do? What can I do? I can only wait and cry and suffer alone.

Poem I

Words from Marie Digby,
Sunk deep inside me,
My love has a high fee,
But I know that hasn't gotta be.

Everyday I pray and plea,
For God to set us free,
To another place I wanna flee,
If I can't then please drown me in the sea.

Everything I'd rather lose,
I can drink litres of booze,
Call me stupid, call me a goose,
But it's him that I choose.

At times he tears my heart pieces apart,
Life then is stinkier than fart,
But in his eyes, I'm the only tart,
And he's the one who owns my heart.

Every Thursday, we used to date,
But now we can only call each other 'mate',
When time comes, I'll cast my bait,
Just to get you back, I'll even go against fate.

In your exercise books,
I wrote small, sweet notes,
They may be cliche quotes,
But none of them are jokes.

Take My Hand

Sometimes I feel like everybody's got a problem
Sometimes I feel like nobody wants to solve them
I know that people say we're never going to make it
But I know we're going to get through this
Close your eyes and please don't let me go
Don't, Don't, Don't, Don't let me go now
Close your eyes don't let me let you go

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

The city sleeps and we're lost in the moment
Another kiss says we're lying on the pavement
If they could see us they would tell us that we're crazy
But I know they just don't understand
Close your eyes and please don't let me go
Don't, Don't, Don't, Don't let me go now
Close your eyes don't let me let you go

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

The raindrops
The tears keep falling
I see your face and it keeps me going
If I get lost your light's going to guide me
And I know that you can take me home
You can take me home

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die (Love will never die)
Take my hand tonight
One last time

Brief Update

Hey people, so sorry for breaking my promise! It's been days since I've wrote something. Well, problems here and there for me to solve. Busy all the time especially with studying! Tonnes for me to catch up. Haihz. At least I got my 4 day vacation even though it's not enough but hey, beggars can't be choosers right? LoL.

Just a brief update bout me. Of course, I'm back in college. Fourth day already. LoL. Things are getting better for me. Studies? I have absolutely no idea. Finals? Dead meat for sure! I really wanna get more rest everyday but there's just not enough time! God should have made it 25 or 26 hours a day! LoL. Since I'm in a rush, I really dunno what to update here in my blog.

Well, I'm just happy that I've finally met all my godaunts and goduncles and godcousins, especially Uncle Ron, Aunt Selina, Sherman, Susann and not forgetting the adorable but mischievious Ryan. LoL. XD (sorry Ryan. I just had to!!) Finally got their Facebook and email add. After like how many years? 9 I guess? Yup, that's a preeeeetty long time. But amazingly they remember me!! I'm so happy and honoured. LoL. Whatever it is, I hope that I can go to Sydney with my brother next January and hopefully can ice-skate there! Good ol' memories. =)

Well, that's all I'm gonna write for now. Maybe I'm gonna update my blog next month? Really no time peeps. Sorry!! But do check my Facebook for pictures from Hong Kong, as I have promised! =)

xoxo,
otakubassist

Plane leaves at 06:00 on 23-September-2009 from Penang International Airport

Destination : Hong Kong International Airport

Today's already 22-September-2009, means in less than 24 hours, I'll be in the air. LoL. Hong Kong, a great place for shopping and full of beautiful hotels. Food? Only for those with a terrible sense of taste and carry dozens of platinum credit cards around. I'll be staying in the Intercontinental Hotel, Tsim Tsa Tsui district. Wow. it'll definitely be an experience for me. Haha

Fear not people, pictures will definitely be provided but I just don't know when! LoL. After this trip, I have to go all out for my finals. No time people! Accompanying me will be my faithful iPod video, um.... only. Well, that's why I called it faithful! LoL. Maybe I'll have a phone with me but it's only for emergency when I'm lost or something. Wailing and crying don't work anymore at my age! LoL. Another must-bring is the digital camera! Sony or Pentax, who cares? I want one that functions like one. Pictures of everywhere, everything and everybody will be taken. It'll be like you really did go to Hong Kong with me.

Plane departs at around 06:00. I know, FREAKY EARLY!!! Means I have to be at the airport by 5am, head out by 4am, wake up by 3.30am and sleep by 7.30pm!! Well, can't complain much. There's two pros to this situation (at least!). First, we start early, we reach early! One day of shopping in Hong Kong!! Woohoo!! Tip : It works better than strong coffee or dozens of bottled energy drinks.

I don't have a shopping list but I have a rough idea of what I wanna buy. My main target is the 64Gb iPod Touch. Second, gifts!! For my dear friends back in college. =) Of course not forgetting Jac, Lena and Ken Ken. Ken : Hope you still like the mug I got you for your birthday! I think that is all. Shopping for clothes is definitely a must 'cause I'm just gonna bring 2 T-shirts for a 5 day trip!! Well, not too bad, I'm bringin a dress too. Hehe.

Well, I think I've written long enough. I'll be updating my blog in the future but not sure when. See ya people!

xoxo,
otakubassist

8 and disappointed

Hey hey everybody, it's so long since I've updated my blog. During the past month, there's just too many hoo-hah!! Man, I really wish I can slow down my life. Wish I have the universal remote control from the movie 'Click'. That would definitely help, A LOT!!

Two weeks ago, I took my IELTS test and last Friday I got back my results. It wasn't too bad waiting for the results. Actually, getting the results is worse than waiting for it! Haha. My life is really going upside-down! Xing Yao, my ILTI classmate and buddy last year got a score of 8.5, highest so far. I want to beat him so badly! Argh!!

But unfortunately, I only got 8. My parents, friends and even Ms Mindy said that it's really high and it's good, and 'considering what I was going through during the test, I did amazingly well' quoted Ms Mindy. XP I dunno. But I was downright disappointed. A little bit with the overall but most of my disappointment is due to my writing.

I mean, writing has always been my forte!! What the hell happened?? I got a 6.5 for my writing only!! ARGH!!!! But others were good la...haha...Reading and speaking sections I've got 8.5, highest possible score I guess and for listening, I've only got 8. Not too bad but I'm not fully satisfied.

I got overall of 8. Most people would jump up with joy, popping bottles of champaign for celebration, but me? I wasn't even a bit happy. Yea sure, I did better than average but there's not a tinge of happiness inside of me. Words like 'happy' or 'smile' or any other words or phrases gives the same meaning, are lost to me now. Famous authors say that happiness is best when it is shared, especially with your loved ones. Don't get me wrong! I have a family and tonnes of friends to share with. But it doesn't last long and it doesn't make me completely happy. I've lost someone so dear to me. Everything that happens in my life, every breath, every minute, I want him to know. But it's so hard. I can't go on the internet and update my blog or Facebook, let alone having a phone.

So, I would like to apologize to everyone that I will be updating my blog and Facebook really slow. But remember, patience is a virtue! Haha. I'll be updating another one I guess but not too sure bout it. Tata folks!

xoxo,
otakubassist

I'll Be Loving You.....Forever

This is the lyrics to the song "Forever" by Damage. This is the song that describes my feelings and thoughts to him. This song and post is dedicated to you and only you hubby. Muax. Hope you enjoy it. =) Hehe. I love you forever and ever baby.

I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever

You are the sun, you are my light
And you're the last thing on my mind
Before I go to sleep at night
You're always 'round when I'm in need
When trouble's on my mind
You put my soul at ease

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
So many reasons that I
Want to spend forever with you

We've had our fun, and we've made mistakes
But who'd have guessed along that road
We'd learn to give and take
It's so much more than I could have dreamed
You make loving you
So easy for me

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
That is the reason that I
Want to share forever with you

I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever
(And girl I pray you leave me never)

BRIDGE:
Coz this is a world
Where lovers often go astray
But if we love each other
We won't go, won't go that way
So put your doubts aside
Do what it takes to make it right
Coz I'll love you forever
No one can tear us apart

I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever

xoxo,
otakubassist

List of Meaningful Songs

Hey, it's a long time since I've updated my blog. This one is nothing much but it's also for someone special. =)

Here's a list of songs which is suitable for him and I wanna dedicate these songs to him. Hopefully I can sing them to him in the future too. =] Enjoy!

1. Baby Girl - b2k
2. All I Have To Give - Backstreet Boys
3. I'll Never Break Your Heart - Backstreet Boys
4. On Bended Knees - Boyz 2 Men
5. Everyday I Love You - Boyzone
6. Back At One - Brian McKnight
7. Forever - Damage
8. Always Be My Baby - David Cook
9. Hero - Enrique Iglesias
10. Belaian Jiwa - Innuendo
11. I'm Yours - Jason Mraz
12. Lucky - Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat
13. I Wanna Know - Joe
14. So Close - Jon McLaughlin
15. Kau Ilhamku - Man Bai
16. Don't Forget About Us - Mariah Carey
17. Touch My Body - Mariah Carey
18. We Belong Together - Mariah Carey
19. Mad - Ne-Yo
20. I Know You Want Me - Pitbull
21. Krazy - Pitbull ft. Lil Jon
22. I Will Remember You - Ryan Cabrera
23. The Animal Song - Savage Garden
24. Crash And Burn - Savage Garden
25. Chained To You - Savage Garden
26. I Knew I Loved You - Savage Garden
27. Truely, Madly, Deeply - Savage Garden
28. Kiss Me Thru The Phone - Soulja Boy ft. Sammie
29. It Might Be You - Stephen Bishop
30. Fearless - Taylor Swift
31. Hey Stephen - Taylor Swift
32. You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift
33. The Way I Loved You - Taylor Swift
34. Forever And Always - Taylor Swift
35. The Best Day - Taylor Swift
36. In The Shadows - The Rasmus
37. I Lay My Love On You - Westlife
38. Right Here Waiting - Richard Marx

*note that those in yellow are those that I wanna dedicate to him. Those that are in red are those that he dedicates to me.

There are plenty songs more but this is the list that I can come up with currently. I will be updating more bout songs that I can dedicate to him. =]

xoxo,
otakubassist

Sexy, Can I?

This is not a post but lyrics for the song "Sexy, Can I?" by Ray-J feat. Yung Berg. This song was introduced to me by my beloved dear baby. =) It's a nice song and I want it up my blog. So, here it is!! Hope you like it baby!! Muax! Hehe. =]

Sexy, Can I?
by Ray-J
(feat. Yung Berg)

Sexy can I
Yeah, Yeah
All we wanna know is....

[Chorus:]
Sexy can I, just pardon my manners
Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh)
It's a Kodak moment, let me go and get my camera
All I wanna know is, sexy can I
Sexy can I, hit it from the front,
Then I hit it from the back
Know you like it like that
Then we take it to the bed, then we take it to the floor
Then we chill for a second, then we're back at it for more
Sexy can I, just pardon my manners
Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh)
It's a Kodak moment, let me go and get my camera
All I wanna know is, sexy can I.

[Yung Berg:]
What's up Lil mama, it's ya boy Youngin
G5 dippin, Lui Vuitton luggage (ay)
Gotta love it, ya boy so fly
All the ladies go (oh) when a nigga go by
Gucci on the feet, Marc Jacob on the thigh
She wanna ride or die with ya boy in the chi
That's right, so I let her kiss the prince
Her boyfriend, she ain't missed him since.

[Ray J:]
Sexy can I, just pardon my manners
Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh)
It's a Kodak moment, let me go and get my camera
All I wanna know is, sexy can I
Sexy can I, keep it on the low
Got a girl at the crib, we can take it to the mo-mo
You can bring a friend, or you can ride solo
Let me get my camera, so we can take a photo
(Oh,oh,oh) Now look shawty, look shawty
Baby when we make love it's like, (Oh,oh,oh)
(I don't know what your man is like but shawty all I want to know is...)
Sexy can I.

Sexy can I, visit you at work

When you sliding down the pole,
No panties, no shirt
Then you climb back up the pole,
Then you drop and do the splits
How you make that pussy talk,
Baby damn, you is the shit
(Oh,oh,oh) Now look shawty, look shawty
I make it rain in the club like (Oh,oh,oh)
(I don't know what your man is like but baby all I want to know is...)
Sexy can I

Sexy can I, just pardon my manners
Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh)
It's a Kodak moment, let me go and get my camera
All I wanna know is, sexy can I.

[Yung Berg:]
I don't care who's ya boy hittin, or who Ray's melon
When I give it to her, I know that she ain't tellin'
See I'm a go get and she a go get
You already know she...
(Sexy can I)
Sexy can I send for you red-eye
Fresh out the pool no towel
Just let it air dry
And if you ain't fuckin' tonight
Man you can watch that tour bus go by.

[Chorus]
Sexy can I, just pardon my manners
Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh)
It's a Kodak moment, let me go and get my camera
All I wanna know is, sexy can I
Sexy can I, hit it from the front
Then I hit it from the back
Know you like it like that
Then we take it to the bed, then we take it to the floor
Then we chill for a second, then we're back at it for more
Sexy can I, just pardon my manners
Girl how you shake it, got a nigga like (oh)
It's a Kodak moment, let me go and get my camera
All I wanna know is, sexy can I.

I love you baby. =*

xoxo,
otakubassist

Our Love Is So Beautiful

Another almost similar post! Obviously this is only for my one and only baby! Muax!! I wrote this when I was sad and after my baby and I fought. This thingy I wrote here was inspired by the song "Ai no Uta" by Mai Fukui =). I guess I just wanna let my feelings out. Hope you guys enjoy it and please leave a comment!!

Our Love Is So Beautiful

Our love is so beautiful
Just like a flower that blooms in spring
But its so fragile
Can you protect it with me?

We used to think that the world is just both of us
And we still do
Every moment we miss each other
Every moment we love each other

Our love is so beuatiful
People used to look at us with jealousy
But now we cry alone
What happened to us?

Is it the distance?
Is it the difference?
No matter what, I still love you
But do you love me like I love you?

Our love is so beautiful
I just want to protect it
Like how I’m gonna protect our baby
Can we love each other like we used to?

Now all we do is fight
I’m tired of it
But I’m still holding on
Hoping that we would stop and love each other like we used to

Written by kah men on 6th July at 2:57pm

xoxo,
otakubassist

I'm Just So In Love

This is just a piece (I don't know if it's a song or a poem or a whatsoever). This is written especially for my baby! Muax!! I love you baby!! Hehe. hope you guys enjoy it and please leave a comment!

I'm Just So In Love

I wake up after a five minute nap
Just to see you beside me
How can I sleep?
There’s an angel sleeping beside me

There’s nothing I can do
I’m so madly in love with you
I can’t even see the stars shining brightly above me
Because the only star I see is you

We fight and get pissed
Not a moment we wanna miss
This world of ours is full of bliss
All we wanna do is just hug and kiss

I used to be so good in math
But when you crossed my path
I flew to Cloud 8 above
Cause I’m just so in love
With you……


Written by kah men on 5th July at 1:33am

xoxo,
otakubassist

Kim Dong Won!!

Hey hey everybody!! I've got some nice treats for you, especially if you're having a bad day!

The title of my blog this time is "Kim Dong Won". He's not a singer or an actor or even good-looking!! So, the reason that I'm featuring him in this blog is that he can definitely make ur day brighter.

Well, everything about him just makes you go crazy!! Or as said by Lena, "Oh-la-la". LoL. His fashion sense, singing, courage etc. etc. etc.. LoL.

I think he can only be found in YouTube. Some of you have seen his most famous video, that is the remake of the song "Touch My Body" by Mariah Carey. The thing is, he brought the song to a whole new level, including changing the name of the song and it's lyrics. =] (Although it wasn't intentional)

I was bored earlier and decided to look for some funny videos to download and found his. Here are some of his funny videos:

1) Touch My Body - Mariah Carey
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7oGx2dImE8

2) We Belong Together - Mariah Carey
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zBDoIn3BcbY&feature=related

3) Listen - Beyonce
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oEza-zIfgyY&feature=related

4) Always Be My Baby - Mariah Carey
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMxjFu0ueKc&feature=PlayList&p=8F0004851ED96F98&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=7

After watching all those videos, the best is still "Touch My Body". LoL. Besides that, I also realised a few things. First, I think he wants to be Mariah Carey. All the songs that he is remaking are from Mariah Carey. I hope Carey won't be too shocked by this. LoL. Secondly, I think he's gay by the way he dressed. I think that the clothes that he wore for "Always Be My Baby" is actually nice...for a girl! But what made me stare at my laptop screen with my mouth wide open is the video "Listen". OMG. He's with make up and stuff. Well, it's his life, still I respect him for whatever he's doing and whatever he wants to be. =]

I hope you guys will enjoy his videos for he has did so much in creating such videos. (no sarcasm here!) He's really brave to post them up on YouTube but honestly, I hope that he actually makes more of them!

Til next time peeps!

xoxo,
otakubassist

One Week's Story

Hey everybody! So good to be posting up new stuff again. Actually I've been wanting to post up quite some time ago but there's so much to say that I just don't know where to start!

Hmm...let's see. What made me post up this one today? Thanks to my baby!! He asked me to update my blog when he isn't even updating his! Or even reading mine. Haihz. I don't blame him. Stupid college of his! Argh! But it's sweet of him to say that since he can't update his blog, he has been writing letters so that he could give them to me the next time we meet each other. =] But it wasn't really the real reason. LoL. Ever since LAST FRIDAY, yes merely LAST FRIDAY only did he started to write those letters. LoL. But it's still very sweet of him to do it. Hehe. =)

This week, let's start with Monday. It was just any usual day but me, Ken and Karthik were playing table tennis in the hostel from 2pm to 4pm. LoL. Boy, did me n Ken had fun! LoL. Obviously thanks to Karthik that we had an enjoyable time. (Although he doesn't know that he's the laughing material!)

Tuesday. Omg. Leela's class, need I say more? Chemistry papers were marked and handed back to us. I thought that I could at least make it in the 60's. Haihz. I have no idea what went wrong. I could do everything in class and I have no problem in my revision. It's just that I can't score in my exam! I don't know if I have exam stress or was nervous. Whatever it is, it doesn't matter now because the paper has been sat, marked and handed to me. I got a freaking 54. Even Karthik's higher than me! WTH!! Haihz. Don't worry Karthik, I'm not looking down on you. Then because of it, my baby scolded me. We had an arguement. He said that I didn't study hard enough or whatever.

But the best thing today was that Leela actually bought my alibi for cutting class last Wednesday! Woohoo! I had my friend (sorry, I have to protect this person's identity) wrote a letter for me which was supposingly to be from my dad. It said that I had "a sudden occurence of gastric". LoL. I forged my dad's signature and handed it to Leela. I used to hate it when I get gastric pain but now I'm actually thanking my stars for letting me experience the pain. LoL. Well you see, Leela isn't dumb. She asked me what is gastric and how does it feel like when you get gastric. The first thing that I told her was "It hurts?". LoL. Then I continued explaining that the pain is almost unbearable, that the pain comes on and off, that I've always had gastric pain in my secondary school years and blah blah blah. Mind you, some of it are true! LoL.

Next comes Wednesday. Long day but ends earlier than most of my other days. Even though nothing much happened today, today is a significant day for me! Samuel introduced a game called "Plants vs Zombies" to me! It was damn fun! We were in the study room where I was supposingly studying for next week's 2 unit math paper. But, the presence of Samuel and his laptop is a VERY HUGE distraction to me. LoL. I'm not lying! Haha. Then there I was, playing the game on his laptop. I was enjoying the game so much that I started shouting and screaming when zombies got closer and closer to Samuel's house! My goodness! It was really a lot of pressure playin that game! Haha. I got that game from Samuel and installed it into my laptop. Hehehehehe. But then I argued with my baby again because of the game. Baby, I know you're scolding me because you cared for me. So, I'm sorry bout that night. I shouldn't have played the game and paid attention to my revision. I'm sorry baby!! Muax!! Sayang you back ha. Hehe.

Then THURSDAY came. Hehe. This is an exciting day! Well, I bet all my friends know why I was so excited, especially Jeng Yuann. Hehe. Today is Jeng Yuann's birthday. So many things happened. LoL. Wherever I see Jeng Yuann, even in class, I'll shout 'Jeng Yuann!! Happy Birthday!!' so that everybody knows. LoL. It was so fun!! Next is gonna be BERNARD!! Nyehehehehe. The most amazing and miraculous thing happened today was during chemistry class.

It all started when Leela was doing a role call. When she came to Jeng Yuann's name, somebody at the back of the class (I think one of those Chung Lin guys) shouted out that it was Jeng Yuann's birthday. Then I don't know how it happened, the whole class started singing the birthday song for him. But until the 2nd line, everybody stopped and started laughing. Surprisingly Leela questioned why we had stop singing and she continued the last 2 lines. We thought the song was done and we all clapped. But!! Leela started singing another version of the birthday song! I'm not sure of the lyrics but she mentioned something like "You've very beautiful", "Why on Earth were you born?", "You are bloody no use" and some other things. LoL. It was 100% UNEXPECTED from her!! Then she wished Jeng Yuann "Happy Birthday" and she was so sweet bout it. =] But then Ms. Kam pissed me off. I told her that it was Jeng Yuann's birthday and she just pretended she didn't hear. Well, I didn't ask her to throw a birthday bash for Jeng Yuann! She could just wish him "Happy Birthday"! Bitch! Then at night, We went to buy KFC!! Yay! I was with Zen Whey, Jia Chuan, Tze Ch'ng, Karthik and Jun Yik in the car. LoL. But unfortunately we left my meal at KFC!! LoL. But luckily Zen Whey realised and we had to go back to KFC to get it. LoL. Then we ate and played in the study room. Hehe. My birthday present to Jeng Yuann is to ketchup mark on both sides of his cheek. LoL. But the most unexpected thing was that Zen Whey actually ate mashed potato from my finger! WTH!! I'll never lick that finger again!! Then again haihz, I fought with my baby. I cried so badly but I was okay after that cause my baby used his special method of cheering me up. LoL. I love you baby!! Muaxx!!

Then Friday is today. Skipped biology class cause didn't do her homework. LoL. Don't care la. I doubt that she actually recognises me. Then had math class. I actually asked teacher questions. LoL. Then I spent most of my time explaning to Li Yun what is IELTS is about. LoL. Then I ate lunch with Jac, Karthik and Jay Moy. It was nice. Hehe. Managed to bully and get revenge on Bernard cause he promised to take us out for lunch. Ish. Then I went back to my room, bathed, cleaned my room and played computer games. Then Jac came to my room around 3 or 3.30pm. She played diner dash and keep on losing! LoL. Don't worry Jac, you can do it!! Haha. Then I talked to my baby on the phone. LoL. Muax baby! Hehe. Don't always merajuk la. It's my job k? Hehe.

Well, it's adi 11:49pm and 41 more minutes, I'll be talking to my baby on the phone!! Hehe. Can't wait. Lena's beside me playing computer games. LoL. She's so cute and funny and drooling over her darling. Hehe.

Guess I have to stop here cause my laptop is really really freaking slow adi. Haihz.
Nitez peeps. Til next time!

xoxo,
otakubassist

15th June 2009, 12:37pm, cyber lab

Its Monday, 15th of June. He's far away from me in Changlun, Kedah having orientation for his matriculation. Starting today, I'll update my blog daily. It's 12:37 noon. Me, Jac, Ken, Jeng Yuann and some other friends are in the cyber lab surfing the net. Actually i have no idea what to write, especially when i'm going to write everyday.

Why am I doing this? I'm going to write everything that happens here to me so that hopefully, my baby can come to my blog and read all my blogs. I think if he does this, he won't feel so far apart from me. Of course somethings I won't be mentioning here cause somethings are private. LoL.

Well, I'm thanking God...umm...actually Maxis, hehe, that there's 3G in Kedah. I can do video calls with my baby!! =] LoL. He wanted to send a picture of himself and a video message to me everyday but it's like so expensive baby!! Somemore you wanna call me every night. Ish. You win lottery izzit? LoL

Today is Monday. So, this morning i had math and biology classes. Both are equally boring. So boring until I messaged Raymond Raj! Haha. How am i to survive without messaging you in every class except chemistry?? LoL. Haihz...my feelings now is like this song I'm listening now. It's a korean song titled 'Bo Go Ship Da' by Kim Bum Soo. The song title means 'I Miss You'. =]
I've been listening this song for the 4th time I think, if I'm not mistaken. =]

Unfortunately i can only write that much now cause I have class now. Boring english class. Well, I gtg. Will update my blog later. Bye bye everyone. Nucy nucy baby.

Muax,
otakubassist.

To My Beloved Baby, I'm Sorry

Dear baby, today is a Tuesday and it's 2nd of June 2009. Yesterday you told me bout the letter your ex wrote to you ever since the day you broke up with her. It was a total of 55 letters. I was in the canteen when I read the first letter she wrote. When I read the second letter, I couldn't take it anymore. I felt like crying there. That's why I stopped and lied to you saying that I wanted to go surf the internet instead. I didn't want to cry in front of you as you don't like me crying and it hurts you when I do so.

But after that moment, I felt sad and dejected. You kept telling everyone about those letters. It made me feel bad. It made me feel like I don't deserve you at all. When you were talking about all those letters she wrote for you, you sound like you're really proud of her and it sounds like she's the better one. I told all this to Raymond and he comforted me. I felt better.

Then you called when I was having my dinner. I was happy cause it's always the case when I get your calls. You wanted me to sleep in my room cause we can have more privacy when we talked. Because of that, I purposely stayed longer in my room just to talk to you before going to Jac's room to sleep. Did you know that Jac was actually sad and I wanted to be there to comfort her? When I went to her room, she's already sleeping. When we talked on the phone, you keep asking me to do things that I have been refusing ever since the beginning. Why can't you understand that I really can't bring myself to do it? Then you merajuk just because I didn't do as you say.

We hung up and I went to Jac's room to sleep. As I was getting ready to sleep, I was anxious to receive your sms but sadly, none. I thought you were really angry and I decided to wish you. I sent the message but I didn't get any reply. Because of that, I purposely put my phone beside me so that when you reply, I can immediately read it. I cried because I was scared to loose you. All those thoughts of loosing you flushed through my mind. I couldn't stop crying but gradually, I was gettin more and more tired and I felt asleep. But you called at 12.30am. I woke up instantaneously and picked up your call. You said that you were glad to get my message. You sounded so happy on the phone. I was smilling while talking on the phone with you. Then after we hung up, I slept soundly.

This morning when I woke up, I really wanted to hear your voice. That's why even though I know that you're sleeping, I had to wake you up to hear your voice. You answered my call and it everything felt right. I felt the energy rushing from the inside of me, carrying me out of bed and into a busy day. We smsed as usual even during my classes. Then I told you bout my plans this evening. I said that I can only see you either 7pm or 8pm. Did you know what you replied was really hurtful? You said "Den dun see la...See for 15 mins might as well dun see". Then I replied by saying "Can you stop being so immature? You think I dun wanna spend time with you?". The next message really sent a pang in my heart. You replied, "Hana...you busy rite? Go busy la. Luan." I was mad at you. You always say that I understand you. Why can't you understand me at least once?

After that I didn't reply all your messages until you top up for me. I was still a bit mad at you. I was thinkin if I should not be mad at you. I couldn't concentrate in my classes. I was happy that my classes are finally ending and I can go to the canteen so that I can see you. But when I was at the canteen, I'm sorry that I didn't talk to you or even look at you. Sometimes after I get angry with you, I find it hard to talk to you again. Then I purposely went to JY's room so that maybe you would come to his room and find me. Thenyou messaged Jac. She told me bout your messages.

What really broke my heart is that you were actually not in the mood. You told Jac that you were afraid that there was something wrong with your heart. At that moment, my mind stopped working. You were actually having all this in your mind when I was acting so selfishly. Then I start to think. I actually did realise that you were breathing harder than normal and your heartbeat is always so fast. I was really worried. In JY's room, I cried in front of Lena and JY. It was because of guilt and worry. What if something is wrong with you? What if one day you leave me? I really love you and I hope you will never forget that. No matter how angry am I with you, I still love you. I can't stand being angry with you for long.

Then Lena and Chia Chuin came back from their date. When Lena entered the room, I just couldn't hold back any longer. Lena asked me how was I. I burst out crying and she lent me her shoulder for me to cry on. She gave me a hug but it didn't really comforted me much. What I need is your forgiveness. Then Raymond Raj came into the room, everyone left the room to give us some privacy. He was really worried about me and he begged me to stop crying. He comforted me and we had to leave the room because they said that the warden is doing a spot check.

Then we went to the area outside the office. You called Lena's number and we talked. You were having difficulties breathing. We were talking on the phone and we talked things out. You kept on apologising. We finally talk things out and I was smiling from ear to ear when I talked to you on the phone. Lena was glad and happy that I finally smiled after crying for 3 hours. I went to my room and we continued talking on the phone. Then I went to Jac's room to sleep but we were still talking on the phone. Gradually, I was getting more and more tired. So, we decided to hang up even though you wanted me to put down the phone after I slept. Sorry baby, the phone charger wyre isn't long enough. Hehe. Then I slept instantly when I lie down on the bed. It was the first night that I slept soundly after such a long time.

I'm really sorry for making you worried baby. I'm sorry for all the things that I have done. I hope that you'll forgive me and I promise that there will not be a next time.

I love you baby. Nucy nucy. Hughug.

Muax,
otakubassist

Best Day Ever? I've Got TWO of Them!!

Heyya!! I'm back again and this time it's for everyone to read! Hehe. Today's Saturday. Well, actually more like Sunday since it's past midnight. Everyone's had their "Best Day Ever". And I had mine twice in a row!! Man, am I lucky!!

The first day was on Friday. Of course everything went on routinely but there were additional goodies to it. First class was Biology. I got to dissect something!! Haha. Don't worry folks, I ain't sadistic! Haha. It was just a teeny weeny chickin kidney. It's freaking small and looks like a mutated red bean that grew really big. LoL. XD. Then it was math! Well, as usual nothing special. Stupid class and stupid teacher. Spoiling the fun of learning math oni. LoL. Den I had half an hour free. Had business plan discussion with Lena and Hamza. Ended at 1.30pm. So, couldn't enter English class!! Haha.

Well, dat wasn't the best part of the day. The best part was during the evening although i had math extra class. Well, it was more like after the extra class. I was with my baby. My God. What we did was really daring. But I loved every single bit of it!! But still, I'm so sorry baby!! XS Haihz... Too bad I can't tell anybody what happened...Haha. I promised my baby not to tell anyone. =]

Then Saturday arrives. I woke up at 10.30am? Can't remember. LoL. But I finally woke up cause there was a fower failure. Haha. After I wake up oni the stupid power came back. Argh... Den I immediately called my baby cause I damn miss him. Hehe. I love you baby!! Muax!! Lena didn't go for math class, parents came early. Blah blah blah. Had lunch, went back. I did all the housechores myself!! Stupid parents.

Went to the beach at around 5.30pm. Met Chia Chiun and his frens dere. Damn nice. Haha. All the guys were like tryin to throw each other into the sea! Haha. But then when they were roughin around, they kicked sand on me n Lena. LoL. Went out for dinner and came back around 9pm maybe?

Den we did the most unexpected thing! Well, for us at least. Hehe. Swimming!! Damn, it was nice!! The best part was that it was night and we jumped into the swimming pool with our casuals! I did the cannonball! Haha. Too bad all my frens weren't here. If not, it would be damn nice!! Or mayb just me n my baby would do....Hehe. After about 30 mins or 45 mins, me n lena started to shake adi LoL. Cold!! Haha. We finally went back and bathed in hot water. Man dat was nice!

Den we ordered McD at 11.30pm and waited until 12.30am!! WTH!! Stupid McD. Terrible services dey have. Screw them. Too bad me n Lena have to sleep with empty stomachs now...haihz...haha. But I dun really mind cause I had two fun days! Plus, Lena couldn't stand it and just got out of bed to get something to eat. Haha. So now, instead of nuggets and fried chicken, we're filling our stomachs with Milo and Oreo wafer sticks!! Haha.

Well, got to go now. Very tired after 2 long days. Haha. Tata! Hope u guys have a "Best Day Ever" too! Muax

xoxo,
otakubassist

Back to You, My Beloved Bf!!

Note : This blog is written specially for my beloved bf. X]

Hey baby!! I just read your blog bout me and I got really excited bout it. So, thats' why I'm writting this one. LoL.

Since baby talked bout my first impression to you, I'll tell you your first impression to me kay? hehe. Hmm...I would say that you're a really really quiet guy and the serious type. But..........after knowing my baby deeper, WOW!! You're loudest and noisiest and most playful person I've ever knew. LoL. Totally the opposite. Haha. Actually, I can't really remember when was the first time we talked. I only remembered that you got my phone number from Jac and started smsing me. It was around end of January I think. Then we start to like sms everday. LoL.

And then, bout the prank... IT'S NOT FUNNY AT ALL!! Sob Sob. I still hate you for doing that!! huh. bleks XP. I was so shocked when you told me that you were leaving the next day for KL. I wasn't mentally and emotionally prepared. Whatever made you play that prank on me baby?? That was so hurtful... But i wasn't that hurtful anymore when you popped the question on 5th of April 2009. XD. How could I EVER forget that date and time? LoL. It was heaven from then. LoL.

It's just sad to think that you'll be going so far away to study and in such short notice. I hope that you'll keep your promise bout spending more time with me within these two months! Blek! XP I really enjoyed last thursday. =] But I was still a bit sad or disappointed bout something... I hope that when we go out again next thursday, you won't repeat your "mistake". LoL. But I LOVED it when we were at the beach and in the cinema. Although it was quite awkward in the cinema! XD haha. Too bad there wasn't any couple seat. haihz... I like every moment we spent on the beach even though sand went into my pants and my shoes! LoL. At least I didn't get sand into my shirt. Well, SOMETHING ELSE did! XD. But too bad baby said that you don't like going to the beach. Well, I guess no more beach dates? haha

I hope this blog is long enough for you baby! Tell me what baby think bout it after reading it kay? I have to stop here because you might call me any minute now. XD LMAO. Bye baby. Love baby loadz. Muax and nucy nucy. =]

xoxo,
otakubassist

Action Figures : My Passion Too!!

Hey hey!! I'm back again. I don't know when was my last blog posted but I think it was within this week. Reading my blog title, you guys must be confused. Hehe. Well, it all started when my eldest brother came back from Melacca.

I knew that he has always been lookin for action figures. Well, not the anime ones but those from Marvel superheroes like Spiderman, Batman and Superman and Star Wars. When he came back, I helped him moved his stuff from the car into the house. Man was I shocked!!! He had four to five bags of action figures!! And some of them were LIMITED EDITION!! There was one bag where it contains Agent Keroro action figures. OMG!!!

He was like screaming at me to be careful of those things. Today only I discovered that my blood brother has the same passion as me!! LoL. I'm not sure if it's something to be proud of or what but I'm just glad 'cause I thought I was wierd and geeky to like all these stuff. XD I think Nazrin will be like 'WTF' both while reading this and after reading this! Haha.

Haihz...What a brother! He didn't even buy any for me when I keep asking for ONE!! Huh. He's gonna get it from me. Muahahaha. XD. Actually it's not that I don't have the money to buy or what. It's just that I don't know where to get them! I know that they can be bought online but I'll be dead meat if my parents knew about it. Haihz.... Speaking of my parents, well actually my mom, she's getting on my nerves and driving me up the wall. ARGH!!!!

Sigh. I guess I have to stop here for this post. Otherwise my mom will be nagging on me again. Til next time peeps!

xoxo,

otakubassist

A Poem For Him

Hey hey, I wrote this very short poem in Business Studies class. I guess I was just in the mood to write. LoL. Please enjoy and give your comment about this poem.

People say things that I don't wanna hear,
Sometimes I just feel like shedding a tear,
But you were always there to chase away my fears,
That's why you're my one and only dear.

We don't care what others think,
As long as our love don't sink,
Cheers, our glasses of wine klink,
Maybe someday we will link.

Forget the past and enjoy what we have now,
In my eyes, there's only thou,
I don't know if in the future we will exchange vows,
But everything you do just make me go wow.

I know it's kind of short but I think I will write more in the future and post them up.

xoxo,
otakubassist

Something I Ripped From Lena XP

This is just something I ripped from Lena. I posted it up 'cause I thought it's worth sharing!
Enjoy peeps!

When there's a full moon,
My heart glows for you!
Can you count the stars?
You can't right?
That shows how much I love you!
Words are from my heart,
Take a deep breath and hold my hand,
For I never will let go of you!
The first time I saw you,
I have this comfortable feeling...
It felt so good! So alive!
Like I'm in heaven!
Read this with your heart,
I wipe your tears with my bare hand...
For your tears stay on my hand.
We don't talk about the past for it happened and can't be change,
We talk about the present for you won't repeat the past,
It's called TREND LOVE for we keep going forward to the future!
Every moment I spend with you is every memory I capture and treasure, bad or good...
I pray to God to give me an angel,
And there you are...
It's up to me now,
God can only show me what I want but not help me to love someone.
I don't want to close my eyes for I don't want to miss every moment with you...
I'm serious about this...
I didn't write this for fun....
I proved what I wrote....
Just hope you really understand what is wrong with me and what is really actually in my heart...
You don't need to reply, you don't need to do anything,
You don't need to ignore it or whatever is it...
Just keep it in your heart!
Smoking, taking drugs kills me!
But having you as my soul mate makes me alive and heals me.

xoxo,
otakubassist

Looking Back : First Week in College

Hey Hey!! How long has it been since I've written a blog? Not too long I hope! This time I came back with more courage to write more about what happened in my life.

I still remember the first time I walked around college. Man! Was I scared! LoL. It was 2nd of January, orientation day. I sat right in the middle of the row in the lecture hall. Nobody on the left and nobody on the right. How sad. But people began to fill the seats. The first person I met was Tan Li Yun, who was sitting on my left and also Oung Jia Xin. On my right was...........umm.........oh well, I couldn't remember but I think he's in my Chemistry and English class!! LoL. Sorry to whoever it is! I'm just really bad in remembering names and faces until I've seen them a few times.

I still remember I got lost on that day! LoL! What a joke! I'm turning 18 this year and I got lost in a small building. LoL. Then my first day of classes starts the following monday. Finished at 2pm and walked back alone to the hostel. And that's when I met JACQUELINE!!!!! Well, I didn't actually met her 'cause I already know her. I bumped into her at the common area. We were so damn surprised and immediately became close friends since that day. That week went okay.

How I met Samuel, Jeng Yuann, Karthik and Ken Aik? Simple. In English class. I was separated from Li Yun and Jia Xin 'cause of the seatings. Then Ms Kam (our English teacher) assigned us into groups according to seatings. Of course, I was with them. I was like 'damn...I don't even know them'. At first I was like cursing and swearing. LoL. Pardon me! During group discussion in class, I sat beside Samuel like an idiot. Thank God Samuel spoke to me and tried to make me talk. Then gradually I was less nervous. I thought Jeng Yuann was arrogant and so was Karthik. Ken Aik was DAMN quiet and boy! Was I wrong! LoL.

Then Yoong Liang came into our class and joined our group. He was sitting there so quietly and I pitied him. I understood how he felt being the alien in our group. So, I talked to him and tried to make him talk. But his lips are like glued together with super glue! Then we had another group discussion in the hostel. It was okay. We all opened up except Yoong Liang again. LoL. We joked and had fun but we still did our work. All of us pushed the work here and there. Finally Samuel couldn't take it and took control. LoL. Whoops! Big mistake he made. All of us starts to call him 'The Boss'. LoL.

After that we became closer and closer to each other as days passed. But I was closest to Samuel. I don't really know why but it just happened and I'm actually glad. At least I don't have annoying Karthik or wierd Jeng Yuann as my best friend!! LoL. I'm really glad I had Samuel then. The wise but not old Samuel. LoL. Well, although he's a lot older than me. Hehe. XD Maybe I have a lot in common with him. Hehe.

Then on friday I met Lena!!!! I LOVE YOU LENA!!!!! LoL. I was actually kinda nervous when I met her. LoL. But now, she's mine and she's my crazy partner! Haha. I love her! Muax for ya Lena!!

That's for the first week! Don't worry. There'll definitely be more coming soon. I'll try to talk about everyone! What's happened and this and that. LoL.

xoxo,
otakubassist

Wi-Fi-ing in Starbucks

Hey Hey everybody.

I know it's kinda lame to actually even post up this blog but some people have been bugging and asking me to update my blog. So, here it is!!

I don't know if you will slap me or screw me after you read this blog. From the title of this blog, I'm sure you'll know what I'm going to say. LoL. This is my first time going Wi-Fi on my mom's MacBook at Starbucks Gurney. The weather is not very nice. Cloudy and wet. So Cold. And from what I'm wearing, I'm definitely not prepared for this type of weather. Plus, I'm sitting under the air cond thingy. LoL

That's all I have to write 'cause my mom wanna use the internet too... 

Til next time.

xoxo,

otakubassist

no more koala

Wow... It's been kinda long since I wrote a blog of my own. Well, in this blog, I am proud to say that I don't like koala anymore. It's more like I forced myself not to like anymore. What made me do that? Our friendship isn't going well, that's why. I also don't like the way he's treating me, plus my friends told me that he might like someone else. So, what's the point? Maybe what N and L said was right. He's just not worth it.

So, now I don't like anybody. My heart is so free now. Freedom is still the best.
Well, let's see who will capture my heart next.

xoxo,
otakubassist

(LoL)

The Name Game

The Name Game

Rules:
It's harder than it looks!
Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name : Cheang Kah Men

2. A four Letter Word : cats XD

3. A boy's Name : Calvin

4. A girl's Name : Catherine

5. An occupation : Cash receiver XD

6. A color : cream

7. Something you'll wear : coconut shells (LMAO!!)

9. A food : chocolate!!

10. Something found in the bathroom : chair??

11. A place : California

12. A reason for being late : Couldnt wake up

13. Something you'd shout : Crazy and lazy? That's me!!! XD

14. A movie title : Catwoman

15. Something you drink : chocolate ice blended

16. A musical group : Corrs

17. An animal : Cat

18. A street name : Campbell Street

19. A type of car : Car??? LoL

20. The title of a song : Collide - Howie Day

100 Truths (part 2)

Sorry...I'm just too free!! haha

1. Last beverage → Blue Hawaiian
2. Last phone call → Ken Aik!! haha
3. Last text message → JACY
4. Last song you listened to → Simple Plan but forgotten which song to be exact
5. Last time you cried → yesterday...

SIX HAVE YOU EVER:
1. Dated someone twice → guess so
2. Been cheated on? → think so
4. Lost someone special? → definitely
5. Been depressed? → not sure
6. Been drunk and threw up? → nope.

LIST FOUR FAVORITE COLORS:- orange, yellow, white, green

HAVE YOU:
1. Made new friends → duh
2. Fallen out of love → ya... going to i think
3. Laughed until you cried → of course!!
4. Met someone who changed you → Yes
5. Found out who your true friends were → yes! thank God
6. Found out someone was talking about you → yes
7. Kissed anyone on your friend's list → nope....umm not sure?
8. How many people on your friend's list do you know in real life → most of them?
9. How many kids do you want to have → 2-3
10. Do you have any pets → hamsters!! hehe
11. Do you want to change your name → nope. love mine
12. What did you do for your last birthday → cant remember...im getting old!!
13. What time did you wake up today → 7:35am
14. What were you doing at midnight last night → out with friends for supper at Coffee Island
15. Name something you CANNOT wait for → cant tell
16. Last time you saw your father →a few days ago
17. One thing you wish you could change about your life → my health
18. What are you listening to right now → the chattering of noisy ppl
19. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → i dont think so >P
20. What's getting on your nerves right now? → my fren
21. Most visited webpage → hotmail, onemanga, wikipedia etc.

1. What's your name → Cheang Kah Men

2. Nicknames → Men Men, Cheang Cheang, makhluk asing, lazy pig, etc. (all thanks to Yap Lian ching! haha)
3. Relationship Status → single
4. Zodiac sign → Sagittarius
5. Male or female or transgendered → LoL. female
6. Elementary → SK Convent Ipoh
7. Middle School → SMK Convent Ipoh
8. High school → SMK Convent Ipoh
10. Hair color → Black...used to be brownish T-T
11. Long or short → Short
16. Height → 180 cm at September2008
17. Do you have a crush on someone? → i dont think its a crush
18: What do you like about yourself? → everything!
19. Piercings → ears...
20. Tattoos → dont have but i wanna get one!!!
21. Righty or lefty → righty all along but tries to write with the left hand >P

FIRSTS :
22. First surgery → none
23. First piercing → my ears... left i think
24. First best friends → Yie Ping!! haha
26. First sport you joined → Swimming
27. First pet → 10 peacock fish LoL
28. First vacation → cant remember
29. First concert → didnt go to one...i think
30. First crush → obviously i cant tell LoL but i was 8 years old then haha

RIGHT NOW:
49. Eating → nada
50. Drinking → nada
52. I'm about to → have lunch? no idea...
53. Listening to → chatterings
55. Waiting for → my stupid classes to end....

YOUR FUTURE :
58. Want kids? → of course
59. Want to get married? → if i could find mr. right =)
60. Careers in mind? → psychology, biology lecturer, designer

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?
68. Lips or eyes → Lips
69. Hugs or kisses → both
70. Shorter or taller → taller!! duh
71. Older or Younger → both but not too young
72. Romantic or spontaneous → both!
73. Nice stomach or nice arms → both...
74. Sensitive or loud → loud and a pinch of sensitiveness
75. Hook-up or relationship → no idea
76. Trouble maker or hesitant→ a little bit of both

HAVE YOU EVER :
78. Kissed a stranger → definitely no
79. Drank hard liquor → no
80. Lost glasses/contacts → nope
81. Sex on first date → no
82. Broken someone's heart → i guess so...sorry >S
83. Had your own heart broken → a couple of times
86. Turned someone down → a few times
87. Cried when someone died → do hamsters count?
88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → yes!!! haha

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. Yourself → of course
90. Miracles → think so
91. Love at first sight → last time, no but now, YES!!!
92. Heaven → not really
93. Santa Clause → doubtful
95. Kiss on the first date? → nope
96. Angels → no

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

97. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yeah.....
98. Who is it? → Koala....>_<
99. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → absolutely not!! and never will
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? → Of course...im an honest person =D

Changeling

I watched that movie last night. It was on a DVD which I had borrowed from En Siang. It was really good and I cried about three to four times! >P I just don't know why but I just cry a lot during sad movies. Same with the movie 'The Curious Case of Benjamin Button'. But that movie is sadder than 'Changeling'. So of course I cried even more!!

This movie is about how a mother fights just to get his son back home safe. The terrible part was that so many kids were brutally murdered by an inhuman man and how he kills them. He takes his axe and chops them as if he was chopping firewood. The part where Christine was in the mental ward was also very gruesome. But although this movie is very nice, there are scenes which are quite predictable. Where's the excitement?

I would say that the best part of the movie would be the ending. Christine was still searching for his son despite everything that has happened. She said that after David was found, she had hope. Even though this sentence is very cliche, it's still a powerful and meaningful sentence. I wonder if this story is really true. Well, I guess I'll have to Google this movie!

Anyway, thanks a lot for lending this movie to me En Siang!! Really enjoyed it.

100 truths

001. Real name - Cheang Kah Men
002. Nickname(s) - Men Men, Cheang Cheang, Lulu, Nana, Kah Kah etc.
004. Zodiac sign - Saggitarius
005. Male or female - Female.
006. Elementary - Convent
007. Middle School - Convent.
008. High School - its form 6 rite?
009. College School - Inti ICP
010. Hair color - black (finally!)
011. Long or short - Short.
012. Loud or Quiet - LOUD!!!!
013. Sweats or Jeans - Jeans.
014. Phone or Camera - Camera
015. Health freak - Uhuh
016. Drink or Smoke - Neither
017. Do you have a crush on someone? - Yes.....=)
018. Eat or Drink - both? if not, how to survive?
019. Piercings - not my thing
020. Tattoos - now that's what i'm talking about!!!!


FIRSTS:
023. First piercing - 2nd Dec 2006 =D
024. First best friend - Chin Yie Ping
025. First award - ...............
026. First crush - a guy hu's 24 n im 8....lol
027. First pet - Peacock fish
028. First big vacation - cant remember
030. First big birthday - 6? 7?

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating - japanese!!!!
050. Drinking - H2O
052. I'm about to - sleep!! damn tired....if in hostel, play ping pong!!!!
053. Listening to - Glamorous Sky - Mika Nakashima
054. Plans for today - go back hostel and play ping pong n hugs my sista from another motha
055. Waiting for - dat guy to like me..........


YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? - duh
059. Want to get married? - if i can find the right one, yes
060. Careers in mind - psychologist, designer, musician, actress, singer, zoologist etc


WHICH IS BETTER IN THE BOY/GIRL YOU LIKE?
068. Lips or eyes - lips
070. Shorter or taller? - Taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous - Both
073. Nice stomach or nice arms - ??? both
074. Sensitive or loud - both
075. Hook-up or relationship - Relationship
076. Trouble maker or hesitant - both!!


HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts - nope
081. Ran away from home - no
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense - no
083. Killed somebody - no
084. Broken someone's heart - guess so
085. Been arrested - no
087. Cried when someone died - not sure


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself - of course
090. Miracles - yeh
091. Love at first sight - YES!!!!!
092. Heaven - guess so
093. Santa Claus - yes
094 Tooth Fairy - yes
095. Kiss on the first date - No


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now - Yes
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life - definitely
099. Do you believe in God - Sometimes
100. Post as 100 truths( is there actually 100) and tag 10 people - ok

1. Jacqueline
2. Jacy

Great English

Today, i had my Moral exam. So, last night only I did my revision. I thought it would be easy but guess I was wrong! The concepts are actually pretty simple but my lecturer had to make it tough for us. I dare say that her English is damn good. LoL. All the grammar and sentence structure is totally off!! You can barely understand what she's trying to say in her notes.

Well, that's one problem. Another is that what she lectures in her lectures is totally different from her notes! Different meaning! So, which should we follow? She's really good in confusing people! No wonder everybody's afraid that they might not pass this paper! No wonder this subject is tough! Yeah, no thanks to her!!

I didn't do very well in this paper. I didn't give my best shot. I am actually quite sure that I'm going to fail this paper. Well, I'll only know when she gives them back. Good thing that I won't be going to class next week 'cause I'll be enjoying my time in Hat Yai!

First Blog

This is my first blog. I have been thinking of starting a blog for quite some time but what seems to be stopping me is that I find it to be very common. Everybody has a blog and it's like telling out what's happening in your life on the internet where people who you don't even know of his existence can read it.

Oh well, I'm just an average girl who can be influenced very easily. So, I guess it's just natural for me to follow suit. To make it sound nicer, you can say that I'm trying out something new. Hey, if I don't won't that be wasting my life? I mean it's worth trying out everything. It's experience that we get. Experience is like the prize for our bravery. So, whatever.

I'll be updating my blog every now and then. So, please be patient for I'm in college now. A lil' bit hectic with dozens of things happening every waking moment. Well, actually even when I'm asleep!

So, take care dear reader and have a nice day! =)

hugs and kisses,
otakubassist