It's just how weird love can change things. Things as simple as your favourite song. When you're with him, when he belongs to you and when he loves you. At that time, your favourite song would be 'Everything' by Michael Buble or 'When You're Mad' by Ne-Yo. Maybe cause you feel you can totally relate to the lyrics of the songs. You feel that the song is so beautiful and accurate, about your love life. But what happens when you guys broke up? The whole world flips, of course that only applies if you're unwilling to let him go. You start to listen to songs like 'I Honestly Love You' by Olivia Newton John or 'Take My Hand' by Simple Plan. You wonder what happened, what went wrong. As time passes, your emotions are all jumbled up like someone had them put into a blender. One minute you're feeling sad, then comes angry, maybe a little disappointed somewhere in the middle and probably finally desperate and helpless. You really want him back, badly. You cry every night, it's worse than the day you guys broke up. Then the loyalty is stronger than ever. You either want to be with him or you'd rather kill yourself. Slowly, you become further and further away from sanity. You start to talk to yourself. You start to imagine that he's right beside you. You even talk to him. Does it help? Depends how long you've got it going on. If you're at the beginning, you'll still lucky. You believe yourself when you convince yourself that he's beside you, that his heart is still in your hands. Unfortunately as time progresses, the faith gets weaker. It's normal but painful. You only have him by memory. You're living with a mental projector or a imaginary hologram. Memories fade, so does faith. The absence of his touch and his voice and solid refreshments drives you to the edge of death.
xoxo,
otakubassist
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